New site

Last time making a new site, because I know I make to many... I just needed a new start again.... I could feel it in my bones that this time I will make it.

http://xanga.com/DefinedBonez

Love You... please subscribe it'd mean alot.

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"And she looks at the mess, that lies on the ground, and she looks at the tears, she cried with no sound. The mirror now surrounds her she threw it on the floor, such hatred in her reflection, cannot bare it anymore. And now she lies in the pieces, of her broken glass, broken life, she picks up a shard of glass, using it as if it were a knife. She traces it over her stomach, over the bones that she cannot see, she wants to cut away her fat, she thinks it will make her free. So she starts to cut her stomach, watching the blood pour out, the voices are screaming, as she, too, cries & screams & shouts. She cuts all over her body, the smashed mirror now tinged red, the voices telling her she failed,more weight she needs to shed. In her own little world now, crying by what she has done, and it scares her because she knows, "it" has only just begun."

By: Me [Tiffany A.K.A Bonez]

I'm afraid to face the truth. Someone help me escape.

I need a friend. Someone who I can relate to. I need someone who can call my cell phone and I talk to them for hours while we inspire each other to keep going. Someone who is like my other half.... but I don't know anyone who is capable of being that way. If you care to be my online best friend comment me. It'd be fun. It'd be very lucky to meet someone who lives in beloit wisconsin.

EDIT4!

I made a thinpo site. Please subscribe! I will love you forever. http://xanga.com/EatBonez  ♥

Grand theft memory

Fasting

Today I woke up wishing I was someone else. Someone who doesn't fuck them selves over, someone radiant and perfect. I hate wishing. Wishes never come true no matter what the hour or ocassion. It's just to make people feel better to thinking they'll get what they want... you won't. You have to do everything yourself.

Want to be beautiful? Get Plastic surgery. Starve. Excersise. Shop.

Want to have power in school? Make the right friends. Speak the right words. Bring up the green monster.

Want to be rich? Get a job.

I have to realise this is reality not some virtual game.

Excersise: 66 Crunches, 1 min 34 sec of bicycles, 20 Jumping jacks

* More to come of course

Edit1: I used to want to be a photographer for abandoned places [ I still do ]. This is the site.  I L♥VE IT -----> http://www.opacity.us 

Edit2: I'm sick of my insecurities. I'm sick of biting words that run through my head. I will no longer be a slave to my body. IT DOES WHAT I WANT.

Currently Reading Impulse By Ellen Hopkins see related

Devine isn't so Devine

"Sometimes I lay on the floor crying because whenever I eat it feels as if people are pulling my stomach and taunting me because I'm fat. I wish they would just go and die. So I will make them..."

Starts: SaturdayEnds: when I reach 127 

Plans: 500 crunches [] Clean room [X] Call Carlos[] 40 leg lifts each side [x] Take hot bath [] Read Impulse in bath []

Excersise done so far:

+145 crunches

+60 leglifts all together

+About 5 min of bicycles

+80 jumping jacks

+ Danced and jumped on bed for 2 min and 56 sec

* Lots more to come

Intake: 0 calorie liquids and 4 strong laxitives

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Edit1: So everyone in my house has the stomach flu... thats great eh? The weird thing is I wish I could have it... only because I want to loose weight.... I also haven't slept yet. Edit2: I've slept and I really need to work out.... damage burnining control is on.  I'm afraid I might go into this. I can't, but right now I feel unsure. Every time I eat I think of purging it up and getting rid of the mess. Please help someone, I'm afraid.

Edit3: My mom made me vegetable rice because I'm vegan and it was really sweet of her. She wants me to try it. I can't, sorry mom. I musn't eat. I wish I could tell you that.... maybe at 1:53 A.M I'll try it because that is when my fast ends... but after that I would have to fast again.... but I just can't at this moment. Edit4:To make me happy I'm putting asian wonderland characters here ♥

"Don't cry, its your fault! Don't stop excersising stupid fat whore. Thats what you are. A FAT BITCH WHO ISN'T WORTH ANYTHING.

That person in your head.... she's real. She won't go away.

Do 1,000 more crunches. Don't you want to be thinner. Don't you want control of your body? Push harder, you're fucking disgusting. No one wants a fat girl. No one wants a slob. Look in the mirror! Can't you see your imperfection?!? Would you rather be a size 8 or a size 2? GET DOWN AND GIVE ME A BILLION. No one wants a low will powered person. No one will find you beautiful.

Fucking cunt, put down that food! Get a glass of water don't you want to be pure? I will haunt you forever until you are devine."

FASTING TILL 127 LBS

My Favorite Suicide Girls

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